HELLO FOLKS, JUST ANOTHER MINDLESS PERSPECTIVE OF LOVE IN THE UBER-FAST LANESo, I'm back in the dating pool... I've been bouncing around making my way through the small tidal waves created by all the excitement in the dating pool. I'm going to be honest as usual. I am very picky about who I date, meet, and share my thoughts with. I don't like to talk about myself in front of certain company, or share what I've been through unless I think it's going to go somewhere with someone. I don't have trust issues. I've worked through them, AT MY OWN EXPENSE.
I've been dating again for about 1.5 years now and I have met some pretty cool people, some I still stay in contact b/c we are better as friends than anything else. Others I really honestly wish I'd never met, and those who really had an impact on me. I look at all those who I've dated and summed it up to be pretty simple. There are those people who come into your life, no matter what will always have a purpose. Whether it's to show you that you are or aren't ready to date, or used and be used as a stepping stone to bring you to another level in your life. One that might just prepare you for meeting the one you were meant to be with. We have no control over this.
It's all about honesty with me. I don't have to lie, nor do I believe in it, or accept it any form or fashion. My past has forced me to be that way. I have no control over it, It's one of the first things that come out of my mouth when i'm about to enter into a casual dating relationship. If you ever wanted to burn a bridge with me, that's the way to do it. I promise you will never hear from me again.
To the heart and mind ignorance is kind.There's no comfort in the truth, pain is all you'll find. However it's something you dig at until you have what you so desperately needed to know.
I'm pretty chill and relaxed. I don't really have much as far as restrictions go. I'm not that guy. I'll never be that guy. I love my alone time as much as anyone else does. You have to have your time with your friends, away from you partner, or it's never going to work. I feel strongly about this, unless it really becomes a problem, I don't have issues like that.
I probably will never understand why people come in and out of our lives despite what I've mentioned above. Maybe that's my excuse that I tell myself.. who knows. I'm kinda fuzzy about dating, and have been for about 3 years. I love meeting new people. It's totally my thing. I can read a person pretty well, and figure them out before they can show me themselves. I don't understand why or how someone can say one thing one day and be totally happy and the next day they shove you so far out of their lives boggles me. I'm not going to spend alot of time on that but it did make me scratch my head for a minute.
So anyways I've moved on.. but a part of me thinks things will be smooth sailing from here on out, and at the same time another part of me thinks I'm going to be on the wrong side of 40 when that time comes. I'm not going to rush things, but I do have plans for my life, Just like everyone else. I've hit every goal set up in my life so far, so I'm pretty confident that I will that one too.
I just think it's completely over rated as far as dating goes, It's too hard to meet quality people anymore. The ones you do meet, Sometimes end up crazy, too many kids, or young. I'm not trying to be some dirty old pervert, LOL. I seem to be and have been stuck in this age gap for a few years now. It seems everyone I do meet is around 25 and under 33. No I haven't met them in bars. So I can't even say that. Some come find me, and I stumble across the others on my own.
It seems us single folks out there are all trekking up the same steep hill, trying to cross that finish line. It's not a contest, It happens when it happens. My hat goes off to the next person crossing that finish line. I'll get there someday... Though I have to admit I thought I was getting closer to it when I did meet someone recently. I mean I wasn't trying to rush anything. I knew that 3 month mark was coming and that's pretty much the make it or break it point for relationships. I look at it this way. That bridge was burned from both ends. I had to force myself to burn my half. I didn't want to. However you must make your stand at some point. According to some ppl, I'm going to regret it, I look at it this way. It is what it is, and bridges can be rebuilt, and ususally rebuilt to withstand fire the second time around.
If you can make it to that point. You know you have to be nervous. You don't know what's going to happen. You try not to think about it. You don't want to jinx yourself. LOL Trust me, I know now NOT to say certain things. But you can't help but wonder what's in store. You can't worry about the future. You MUST take it one day at a time. Anything else will just mess with your mind.
