IDENTITY THEFT PROTECTION FOR DUMMIES

This is why I carry a camera with me most of the time. If not just my cell phone, my handy dandy Kodak HD V1073.

I am in the local Walmart the other day and I saw some pretty interesting things. One that caught my attention was a product basically calling us " Dummies " We've all heard of the wonderful products stemming from the " For Dummies" people. Well this one took the cake. It deserves to have a small article written about it.

Identity theft as we all know is on the rise, I mean it's not hard to figure out that people will go through your trash to get your info. That's why the shredder is NOW a common household item. This product brought to you by the " For Dummies " group has called us out on being LAZY & CARELESS. I recommend that if you do purchase this item, it better be in the middle of the night. I wouldn't want anyone thinking I didn't know how to protect my vital information.

INSIDE THE BOX:
(1) One ULTRA quiet microcut shredder for the ULTIMATE in document security. It cuts one page into 2235 pieces. ( WOW )
(4) Check fraud prevention pens ( DOUBLE WOW ) Basically non erase ink, ink pens.
(1) Book on how to prevent identity theft.
(1) 90 DAY trial of LifeLock* ( LifeLock is basically a credit monitoring service that provides an ironclad $1,000,000.00 guarantee that even if someone gets your vital info they will insure you up to $1,000,000 in fraud right offs. However they will still have your vital info. WHICH if I remember correctly is why we bought this package to begin with, RIGHT ?

It just amazes me how carefree we have become with our information. I don't know about you, but I don't even have my paystubs, bank statements, or credit card statements come in the mail anymore. I save tree's. I view it all online.

THE HOME DEPOT EXPERIENCE in Cockeysville, Md 21030

WOW, Let's begin by saying I went to the Home Depot in Cockeysville, Md earlier today. I was kind of in a rush, I had plans to be somewhere at 4:00pm. I strolled inside with everything I had to get on my mind. It was a simple list. 1 1/2" wooden dowel, one piece of wood, one bracket set to hold the wood dowel up and a stud finder.

I'm racing down the main drag towards the wood isle. Now mind you it's ONLY 2 isles... not really hard to figure out where things are. So I grab the first employee at the end of that isle, She was all about helping me, So i felt comfortable asking her if she could kindly point me in the direction of the wooden dowels, I described what i wanted and the look on her face, was telling me I picked the wrong person in the wood section to ask.

She tells me I have to go and see Tony. Just then she screams down the isle for him. Mind you there was a body down at the other end, but it was female... so I thought ok, she knows what's up. She screams again for Tony & asks if "HE's " down there, looks at me asks me if I know him. Just as I'm about to run away, I see a thumb pop up and she says, " there he is " At this point she should have just said, walk down the end of the isle, you'll see a cadillac with no wheels on it sitting on blocks, talk to the man inside and for $5 bucks, he'd give me directions on where to go.

So I walk down, Tony and I meet. He is a young kid, looking hungover as hell sitting on a bucket. I repeat my request... again understand there is only 2 isles of wood. This crack monster tells me that he has no clue what I'm talking about and to go to the " ORANGE " info desk down the main isle and he points in the direction. I just look at him like I want to kick the bucket from underneath him and walk down the magic isle. I say that b/c I walk the entire store length and the only thing orange I see is a HD bucket. This is where the hero of the day comes in.

As I made my journey down the magic main isle I spot 3 employee's in the blinds section, speak my request and low and behold, Jason says to me, Follow me, I'll take care of everything. This employee should be recognized 100% and given a raise and his picture put on the wall.. He got me everything I needed. Kept me on my time frame and hell, he even cut the wood for me and he didn't work in the " wood " dept. I made a decision to seek out his name on his apron, especially for this blog. If you happen to find yourself in the Home Depot in Cockeysville, Md. Don't waste your time on anyone else. Find Jason. He's about 5'8" wears glasses and can probably be found in the blinds section. Kudos to you my friend. You took real good care of me!!

SUBWAY'S NEW CHICKEN FLORENTINE AND SOUTHER STYLE CHICKEN & DUMPLINGS

I have to say, I'm a sucker for a good bowl of soup. I usually only eat it during the winter time. Mainly because anything hot in the summer time doesn't help me keep cool. I sweat bad enough as it is, I don't need to ingest any hot liquids when it's 103 degrees outside.

I walked in to the local subway during lunch one day. It's a common spot for us cubicle dwellers during that time since it's so close to the industrial park I work in.

They had a few new sandwiches on the menu. The Steak & Bacon Melt and the Chicken Florentine, Both on flat bread. I chose the Chicken Florentine. I must say, the way they serve it up is perfect. It comes with tender, juicy chicken, olives, tomatoes, Tuscan spices and melted cheese, all topped off with our creamy spinach artichoke spread. I chose to get mine a little different.


I'm not a fan of olives and I only eat tomatoes with certain foods. I got my sandwich with spices, red onions, spinach artichoke spread and parmesan cheese. Toasted of course.





I complimented my sandwich with a nice bowl of Southern style chicken & dumplings soup. This soup was so good, so thick, and full of flavor. I did the spoon test* for thickness and was very pleased. I almost made a second trip for a second bowl. The only disappointing thing was they didn't have any crackers. However, it didn't need it, I just add crackers to every soup I eat. It's a preference.




Kudos are in order for Subway. They kicked off my winter soup eating addiction in the right direction. I can't wait to get it again !!

*** SPOON TEST: Stick the spoon in a bowl of soup. If it stands upright on it's own, it's almost a guaranteed reward for your taste buds!


** SANDWICH NUTRITION INFORMATION

** SOUP NUTRITION INFORMATION

BURNING A CD TO PLAY IN MY JEEP

Let's just say when I'm driving down the road, I like to listen to good tunes just like everyone else. I have an Ipod that lives with me. Such a great thing. I don't think honestly that I could live without it now that I actually broke down and bought one.

Well, to be honest, I don't want to put headphones on while driving, One it's illegal in most states, and two I like to blare my tunes. Windows open or closed, it doesn't matter to me.

I started this quest about 1.5 days ago. I thought about burning a cd. I have limewire and all my tunes are ripped right onto my pod. My friend burns them for me every once in a while and we jam out on the way to the bar. It's always a new one when he gets in.

I compiled a list of good stuff. Mostly techno and juggalo junk, thru it into windows media player and poof the CD was created. Or so I thought. i was excited. I was hanging out with a friend and wanted to set the mood for the pre flight to the bar and wouldn't you know. NOTHING. My stupid radio said error. Man, what a bummer that was.

I went over my friends yesterday and said, " man you gotta do this for me asap. burn this CD list for me, I can't get it to work for shit on my computer, I watched what he was doing and followed everything else from there when I got home. STILL this error message began to haunt me. The funny thing about it is that I am pretty much a computer expert on things like this. I can take a PC apart, repair it, upgrade it, and throw it back together pretty much in one hour.

I said screw WMP ( windows media player ) and downloaded NERO did the same thing, popped in a new CD and after about 2 hours of downloading NERO the CD burning took about 20 minutes and i was ready to test it in the jeep. I went out to get a pack of smokes and popped it in, LOW AND BEHOLD this error message won't leave me alone.

THERE IS NOTHING IN THE WORLD THAT IS MORE ANNOYING THEN REPEATING THE SAME MISTAKES WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU WENT WRONG. I tossed this CD right out the window at 30 miles and hour, cussed it for a few seconds as it whizzed across someone's front yard. Man are they going to have some great music if they can get it to play in the car. It works in the PC. However I can't strap my SPECIAL NEEDS DELL COMPUTER in my jeep. It might CURSE my ride.

The worst thing in the world that I ever did was buy this crappy dell computer. I miss my old E-machines. Those babies are the best computer in the world.

So i dig out a CDRW from somewhere, dust it off and pop in a fresh baby since the last one might have been spotted and identified as a UFO as it left my Jeep so fast.

Everything is loaded on Itunes remember, since I have an Ipod and I know it plays good there, so I'm going to burn this last and final CD from there and pray to all that is holy that it works for the ride into work.

The only thing that i can think of at this point is that either I got a bad batch of CD's which I seriously doubt, Or I was lied to when my dvd-rw drive DOESN'T burn CD's. Which I know some do and some don't. If that is the case then I will just have to beat the fuck out of my computer and build one myself where I know exactly what it does and doesn't do.

I mean I already had to replace the hard drive in the thing MYSELF b/c STEVE JOHNSTON from Dell through his INSANELY thick INDIAN accent told me that it didn't work when I woke up one day and it said some crazy ass error that I knew the hdd had crashed during the night, However I had to go through 99.5 steps for him to tell me that. However rest assured that they would be sending a technician out immediately to replace it. Well 6 months later I'm still waiting for him to show up. Good thing I went out THAT day and bought one myself and through it in there.

So Itunes just finished burning this CD, but it's 2:11 am and i'm NOT going out to my Jeep to test it... It's raining outside and it's cold. Well wish me luck in the AM.


****** UPDATE ******

I couldn't wait, I broke down and went outside in the freezing cold, in my boxers and t-shirt popped that baby in there and guess what... ERROR I almost had an anyurism on the spot. I'm convinced now that this stupid ass cd is cursed. I will be taking out my cdrw burner from my old gateway that is still next to my old computer, and I will be hooking it up tonight, burning the cd and will placing it in my lovely Jeep radio tomorrow with confidence, b/c I know there is no fucking way it won't work.

Burger Dog Creation

Everyone has their own version of this product. I remember eating one at the unique hot dog spot in Cockeysville, MD called The Wild Dog. It consisted of a hoagie roll, two thin hamburger patties, and a unique spiral cut hot dog. I remember them topped with chili sauce and oh so good.

Well ever since my childhood I've been facinated with hot dogs. I love them anyway you wanna hand me one. I'll try any kind. I do alot of experimenting since one day I plan to open my own place. I have it all mapped out, menu options, sides, condiments, and even have the name all picked out. To finalize the name I am going to choose I am going to have a vote. I was all set with the name until someone suggested something else and believe me when I heard it, it stuck with me. I even ran it by my family who think that it's even better than the one I had.

My family members and friends are behind me 100 % which means alot to me. It will give me an opportunity to live my dream. I'm not scared to fail, but I am scared to take that first step to owning my own restaurant or start a business. Success in my eyes regardless of failing is being able to muster the courage to follow through with my dreams...

ONLINE DATING WEBSITES

OK, here's my take on Online Dating

I really don't understand why or how people pay for these sites. I've always been against paying to meet someone, Or for better description, BEING IGNORED. I don't have to pay anyone to be ignored. I can do that all on my own for free. It's nothing more body warming then sending someone you see on a dating website a message " breaking the ice " and never getting a response. Hell some people even look at your picture and just delete the message, not even reading what you have to say. I'm a victim of it too, i'm not going to be pleasing to everyone's eye.

I just understand why those types of people are even on the sites. I mean I go to this free website Plenty of Fish, it's a free site, it's completely crazy. It's full of everyone that shouldn't be in the dating scene for the most part. Now i've run across maybe 1 person or 2 that have been pretty cool and made some friends on there. Tons of window shoppers per say. People who add you as a favorite and never contact you. What's with that ? I mean if I add you as a favorite, i'm contacting you to say hi. I mean for example, there's this one girl who's on the site, stating that she always dates the wrong guy, She's 5 months pregnant, the father of the baby isn't in the picture. Her last relationship only lasted 6 months. I mean COME ON ! hell, I'll find her and add a link to her profile... it's too damn funny and she's being for real real ! Here is the link.

Kinda makes me wonder why I should even try dating again. I mean my last girlfriend turned out to be a drug addict who took us for everything we had and then some, and we were together for 7 years. I'm just wondering if I missed some new dating rule in those 7 years about how things were going to be.

I'm a pretty self suffient guy, who can do everything himself, earning a nice income, with a pretty stable job, not too bad looking on the eyes, trying to change myself around, lose some weight. I'm working on it... lol I didn't gain it over night and i'm damn sure not losing it overnight either, but slowly but surely i'm getting there.

I'd like to think of myself as pretty normal dating material. I don't have any baggage, I'm not pressed being single.. I just get riled up over these dating sites. I think they're horrible... It gives ppl a chance to be completely rude to people, total strangers. I dunno.. I'm not a rude person I guess... NOT like that at least.

Guy's Night Out At The Emerald Tavern...

Ok, It's Friday and I made plans to hang out with the "Hans" to hang out at the Emerald Tavern after work. I roll up to this bar and it seems pretty chill. Nice atmosphere, just like the "Winchester". I had to admit, I felt real comfy at the bar.

The bartender, This cute blond with the little gap between her teeth made think she was kinda freaky. I can't explain why I'm attracted to the who gap in the front teeth thing, but I am. Well, I had made double plans that night, Hang with Hans, and finally meet this girl who's been wanting to meet me for some time now.

I met this girl online and gave her a call and was quick to learn that she was coked up while talking to me, Just got her 3rd DWI two days prior, and was going to sun bathe on the deck of her house and smoke some weed.

I was kinda aprehensive to meet this girl. She was kind of wild and a major party chick. Well if you know me, I'm always up to party, and have a good time. But lately I've chilled out the past 5 months and have been focusing on other things more importantly like buying a house.

So in walks this girl. Half hawaian and spanish, She's built good, nice looks, but way too loud, even for me. She immediately grabs my face and plants a kiss on my lips, while digging her claws into my neck, I swear to god I thought she was going to draw blood. Expressing how happy she was to meet me finally. I introduce her to Hans and he's got this look on his face like, I'm in over my head. Well I was... lol.

She grabs my hand and thrusts it into her crotch and tells me to squeeze to prove she's not a man. ( I teased her saying she looked like a man in one of her pics ) Well, she definately wasn't a man... The crocodile Dundee test was complete.

This girl was constantly digging her nails into me, my face, my stomach, and my mommy/daddy buttons. Super loud she beckons for a shot of Rumplemintz, I had to get this shot to her quick to shut her the fuck up. I was actually a little embarassed to be around her. She sucks the shot glass dry and grabs me around the neck and tells me that she has to go to the bathroom. I was relieved at the moment, upon leaving she informs me that she'll be right back, and PUNCHES ME IN THE BOYS.

The look on my face, as the bartender walks by laughing at me asks what was wrong and I tell her what just happened and that I was scared she was coming back. This girl is no way near my type, but had to get the meet and greet over with. She comes back from the BR and tells me her friends that she came with are going back to Dead Freadie's and for me to meet her back there.

I express fake interest to get her away from me and the Hans and never show up. I was so scared that she was going to come back I was actually paranoid the entire rest of the night. Hans laughing with me, as he's that type of friend... the best kind to have by the way ! He just shakes his head and we share that silent moment in agreement. Sometimes I wonder if we share the same brain cuz we think alot almost all of the time.

These are the times that dating actually scares me. I plan on dating alot this coming year to find someone compatabile and grow from there. So if you know anyone looking to go on a date or hang out with that's single and normal. Let me know... But if she ends up being crazy, I'm coming back to kick you in the head... lol

30 cents !!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME

Ya know, I was going to work Friday morning, and thought to myself, " I need gas ". Oh well... Since I usually get it at lunch or on my way home, I waited. So after getting off work, I desparetly needed to fuel up. When I left this morning for work gas was $3.44 - $3.49 and when I gassed up it was $3.79 !!! .30 cents more in one day, you've got to be kidding me. Who's in control of this gas crisis. I'll tell you who... NOT US that's who !

If I ever had the chance to ask someone with power, i'd love an explanation on how you think you can justify a .30 hike on gas in one day. To me I felt fully taken advantage of as my gas was pumping, $20 worth mind you, I wasn't filling up my jeep at that price. I mean, how are we supposed to survive when we are soo damn oil dependant that we can do nothing to keep the price of something we can't live without within reason.

GOOGLE CHROME, We Welcome You !

Finally, a web browser that I don't have to fear... So far at least. I waited all day to finally be able to download this. This is different, this child was born out of competition. A rival for internet dominance. Microsoft should worry about this one. This browser that I'm currently batting eyelashes at is super fast. It doesn't clutter my computer, hog my memory, or if I wanted to. Leave no footprints.

The Incognito Window,You've gone incognito. Pages you view in this window won't appear in your browser history or search history, and they won't leave other traces, like cookies, on your computer after you close the incognito window. Any files you download or bookmarks you create will be preserved, however.

Going incognito doesn't affect the behavior of other people, servers, or software. Be wary of:
Websites that collect or share information about you
Internet service providers or employers that track the pages you visit
Malicious software that tracks your keystrokes in exchange for free smileys
Surveillance by secret agents
People standing behind you
Learn more about incognito browsing.

It also allows you to see your favorites and most viewed pages when you open a new tab. Which I happen to like, cuts down on keystrokes and its' simply point and click. For those not so internet savy, this might be ideal for you. What's even better is that I can customize this baby the way I like. It's open code... Google has been running the race quite impressively, starting from the stock auction, to the hint of a web browser that will make Microsoft sweat a little.

I like the fact that they advertised the up and coming in a comic book fashion. What better way to keep the attention of the reader, using pictures and words... LOL. Click the link for the comic book advertisement

I also especially like the " YouTube" query when typing the destination in the address bar. It populates and shows a drop down of what your looking for, and goes far beyond that.

I think so far, the best feature, and this is just my opinion... but if you ever been working on something and Internet Explorer has an error, Every one of your browser windows goes buh byes... NOT ANYMORE! With Google Chrome, Just the failed tab will close, leaving all the other tabs to remain open. Please feel free to check it out. I highly recommend it.

I give two thumbs up on this new browser and can't wait to explore and tweek it more.

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The Life Of A Gangster

The Life Of A Gangster. A good read Guaranteed.

* ( This blog is not new, but an interesting read that I created and has been popping up on random people's pages and I thought i'd share it )

To live the life of a gangster, not always the best life to live. However along with gangster-ism comes several different perks... Not many ppl give you a hard time. You're always recognized and given respect when you come into a room. Eyes focus on you as you walk thru a crowded area. Some out of fear, others out of curiosity.

To be gangster, One can act gangster all they want, Gangsters arent' violent, they don't go around starting shit with ppl or act all loud. However there are several different versions of being gangsters. Here are a few examples of the gangsters I've seen around.

1. The lone gangster- This guy/gal is always around. Usually never saying a word, always peering around, sometimes staring at ppl to get recognized. These are the ones you question why they come to the bar. They are scopers.. They're there to check out what's going on. Constantly on the phone acting important.

2. The Gotti boy gangster- These guys are always amusing to look at. Usually flamboyant, dressed in high dollar attire, Gold chains and wearing tinted sunglasses at night. Typically surrounded by several other guys who appear to look the same. Focused on one thing, and that's getting the girl. The number contest is on.

3. The Gangster gangster- These guys have seen way too many movies, and live a cinema life. Typically they have a wrap sheet longer than my arm. They tend to act out to impress their friends and always do stuff to have stories told about them later. Lifespan of these guys usually isn't too long, because they tend to piss off the wrong person, usually the wanna be gangster.

4. The Thug Nation gangster- You've seen these guys at the bar and clubs all the time. They tend to come in together and sometimes making a loud introduction. You can't help but notice these guys... They're always at the bar. Typically these guys can be recognized with a "chin up" The "chin up " is the way certain ppl recognize each other's presence. You've seen each other around, but don't know each other except at the bar. These guys are good ppl and will recognize if you need additional force.

5. The Wannabe gangster- Again, cinema life.. These guys are dangerous and usually you want to avoid them. They're willing to do anything to get accepted and that usually means trouble. They tend to tag along and are always around the Gangster gangster. All they want is to be respected and will do anything to live the life, even if its for only a few minutes. Typically all that surrounds these types is nothing but drama. These are the worst of the worst, they are trash and are concidered the cockroach of the lifestyle.

6. The True gangster- These guys are the real deal. These guys grew up fists to face, earning the reputation that follows them around throughout the up and coming generations of ppl. These guys are quiet, they get respect from all angles. Ppl coming up to say hi and hang out for a few, It's always a good time being around these guys. They don't act out, they're reserved, and typically give looks to let you know whats up. These are the ppl you really don't mess with. All other gangster types look up to these guys. Messing with these ppl usually isn't good. It may not happen right there at that moment, but rest assured, you will be dealt with when you least expect it.

Live your life as you see fit, Have a good time when you are out. Don't start trouble with people you don't know. You never know what type of gangster you might come across.

When It Comes Down To Choosing Pockets...

Believe me when I say, I love my job. I truly enjoy the art of selling. It's a gift, really it is. There are two types of lifestyles in the world today. There's the buyers, who are mostly playing catch up and are satisfied with living life paycheck to paycheck. Then there are the Sellers, they strive everyday to do the best they can, use the tools given to them to kick it up that extra notch that gives them that swagger when they walk.

I have been doing my job for about a year now, It used to be fun, and exciting. Now all I do is yell at people for calling my line to check their balances, and ask questions that they know the answers to. Oh, let's not forget the morons who think that just because they are late on their payments they don't deserve to have a late payment assessed to their accounts. Let's face it, I'm going to blast someone one day and that's going to be the day that I get in some sort of trouble for someone telling me, that " they have all these accounts with us and that they can close this account because they feel as though they are exempt from paying late.

The only people who get any kind of fee waiver from me are those who's payments post the day after they make the payment and it shows they made it on the day it was due, just after hours. I had a talk with the boss today who asks me how I can sell 18 products in one day and then not sell anything else the rest of the month. I simply put it like this, " I didn't hit my incentive, why should I work harder and not get paid. Once I realized that I wasn't going to get paid for my products, I went back to being a customer service agent for my company, and not a salesman, as I was hired to do. Honestly, if you are going to filter nothing but customer service calls to me, don't expect alot of sales coming from my desk. Simply put. You can't sell someone who isn't calling about that option.

Doing this job we have calls coded and labeled with dollar amounts on them that we have to achieve PER call in order to keep our opportunity up. ( opportunity must be at 100% to get paid incentive ) The highest call code is " A " and it costs me $3500 every time someone decides to push a button to get through the automated service and speak with someone about their bill and not do any transferrs or anything. God forbid you call that line to activate your card. You will sit on hold for at least 10 minutes before I put my headset back on. That's how long it takes me to calm down after getting the call to be plesent to you and remind you that you called a specific number to do business, not activate your precious credit card that you haven't used since 2004.

I'm at the point where I can not do my job anymore. I have to pull myself out of bed and make an excuse to go to work every day. It's grinding away at me, I have to get out of that department before I snap.

*** Just a rant to make myself feel better.

2009, The year of the bride

Lot's of things going on in a single man's world. Trying to get back on the dating horse after 7 years of riding, only to be violently thrown off. I've struggled to maintain alot of different values and thoughts towards the dating scene. Constant struggles with my weight have definately deterred me from really wanting to date.

Being single has it's advantages and disadvantages. You don't have to really deal with anyone else's problems, nor do you have to impress anyone. On the other hand, you forget about yourself, your body, and sometimes your health. I've come up with the notion that I don't want to be single anymore. I've recently done alot of different things to prepare myself for the dating scene.

I'm going to be 35 years old this year. I don't have any kids. I have a great job which I tend to hate from time to time. More recently now than ever before. But that's just a cycle in which I'm going through since i've come up on my 1 year anniversary. I want different things at work. My attitude is constantly changing and I need to harness myself before I get out of control with mind wandering, internet surfing, and lack of attention to detail when it comes to my job and performance.

I've come up with a plan, Since i'm going to be 35 in less than 6 months. It's time for the dating overhaul. I've got a checklist of things I need to acomplish before that period. Financially I want to be debt free. Credit cards paid down, lose about 60 lbs, save money, and pay off my vehicle which I'm currently paying 17% on for the next 4 years.

My auto loan is a constant reminder of my 1st goal achieved. Financially my last relationship almost drove me bankrupt. Alot of things went unpaid during the year long break up. ( that's an entirely different blog in itself) I moved back home almost 2 years ago, for several reasons.

1) To repair the financial destruction that was caused

2) To buy a house

3) To put myself back together mentally, and financially.


See I didn't have to move home. It was a choice that I made and an offer I took up to better myself. I wasn't going to be dating anyone anytime soon after my break up. Given what I had just been through, I'm surprised I didn't turn gay... LoL no, I don't like guys MOM, You will have grand kids one day, I promise. I took the offer, and it worked. I paid off 95% of my debt, repaired the credit and have since purchased a vehicle.

Now on to my second goal. When in a relationship, it's hard to keep track and focus on certain things when you are in love. Weight sometimes isn't an issue. You put on a few pounds here and there, next thing you know, you're not happy at all with the way you look like, but for some reason you can't do anything about it. The diet yo yo begins. 10 lbs here, 20 lbs there. Up down, up down. It seems for every 20 lbs that I lost, I gained 5 extra back. It doesn't help that I bloat like a woman, retain water like it's a second job. I know alot of this is because of my weight. Hence my second goal... WEIGHT LOSS !

I've always been a thick kind of guy, very husky and semi muscluar. I have that frame. I'm not ashamed of it, I like it. Only in the past 4 years, I've gained about 60 lbs. It's the constant reminder of why I gained weight in the first place that is driving me to lose it finally. I want nothing to do with my past relationship, that includes any memory of who I was or who I dated. Call it childish, or whatever you want to, but believe me when I say this, " That part of me is dead and has become a black hole in my memory. I can not remember anything good out of that period in my life. Even though I know that there were 6 years of pure happiness, I can't remember any of it, only the bad, horrible things that happened in the last year " .

I'm one of those good looking fat guys I guess. I have no problem meeting girls, getting numbers, and so on and so forth, but not good enough to date. Even though I wasn't ready, it's still nothing I want to hear. We as humans need to feel loved, cherished, and feel attractive. This is the part that i'm missing. I don't feel attractive anymore. I don't feel wanted. Believe me, I know this isn't true, but it's how I feel.

So, this is where I begin the transformation, I named this blog "2009, The year of the bride" only because, I'm NOT looking to get married this year, but I am going to start dating. I do however want to at least meet the person i'd concider marrying down the road. I'm not rushing into anything, I might not even like anyone that I date in 2009, but i'm optimistic. It's what gets me by. However, I do have a list of criteria that must be met.

1) You must have a car

2) You must have goals achieved or in place (personal or financial )

3) You should have ambition and drive to pursue your goals.

4) Must be drama free and optimistic

5) If you have a child, you must be open to having at least one more. It's important to me to have children of our own. If we are in a relationship and you have a child, I'm sure to love your child like my own, but would still like to go through the experience of having my own. That's whats important to me. I want to experience those emotions.

Well, This is all I have to say for now, I will be posting more blogs on this site and on my myspace page, www.myspace.com/jayeleitch Please feel free to peek inside my life.







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